Hello
So, I have been praying lately about my life. Where should I be? What am I really here to do now? Now that my kids are grown, what am I here to do? And I have realized it is time for me to move, move out of this county that I have never liked, all in the thirty years I have lived here. People are too selfish, too nasty, mean, materialistic.  I really have no real friends here, all my friends are from my hometown, friends I have had my entire life.  The friends here either wanted me to train them at the gym, work out together, and the other friends just wanted someone to go out with!! Not good friends at all, where were they the few times I needed someone? Definitely not there!! I want to wake up every morning and say Thank you God for my life!! And, I am thankful for my children and my large family, but that's not enough anymore. Everyone has their own life, too busy to get together.
So, I have decided to move, far away from here, and be near a beach every single day of my life.  Since my car accident I haven't been able to work a full time job, so my work isn't keeping me here. Plus, I want to write, and I can do that anywhere.  I am not married, not even a boyfriend keeping me here. I have always had to stay due to my children finishing school.  Now they are pretty grown, and my daughter and I will go to start, to California!! Here I come.  Won't be able to go until next summer, but thats fine, there is lots to plan, lots to do.  Have to find storage for alot of my stuff, etc. etc.  So, now I am searching where in California should I be?? Then, I will fly out next year a month before I want to live there, find a place, come home, pack up and leave.  We are very excited, my daughter and I.  My son will join us after a year and attend a college there, so that's great.  It will be hard to leave him, but he will be driving soon and will never be home anyway. I wish I could afford to go now, and scope out the state, and see where I want to live.  I am not one bit scared, it's like I know it is time to go, and that is where I want to be!! To spend time on the beach all year round, and almost daily, would be a dream come true for me!! And, never to be cold, awesome!!
And being around here has too many memories of my ex and the family I no longer have since they all live here.  I would love to move back home, but don't know how happy I would be there now either.  I have nothing to loose by leaving, only to start a new adventure in my life which I am so ready for!!