October 29th

Boy oh Boy!! It's actually snowing outside, yes they all said it was going to, heard about it all day yesterday.  But did I believe it?? Absolutely not!! 
So, my son was having a Halloween Party at his Dads's so he needed me to drive him there. It was snowing badly all morning, and pretty windy.  As we left around 3:00, we did not realize there were large tree branches, all over the streets driving to our destiny.  We had to stop at Shop Rite, again. As I sat there, I realized the streets were too bad, not even a plow in sight, branches everywhere, roads detoured off, etc.  that I was going to go back home, too nasty out and unsafe to take the trip.  Especially since the electric wasn't working, I doubt the party would still happen.  When my son returned to the car, I expressed this and he was a little upset.  No problem, I could understand being upset, he did shopping, etc and was really looking forward to it.  But, it's not my fault the weather is like this, and the streets are terrible, no one even plowed or picked up random branches all over the streets.  But still, he yelled at me because I was discussing how I listen to my children too much.  True, it is, and I am so tired of it, they actually seem to have less respect for you if you ask their opinion, your suppose to be the mother anyway!!! 
We arrived home, I came inside and went upstairs, and he seemed to get over it.  But, he bought some chocolate when he ran into Shop Rite, I asked for a piece and guess what his answer was?? NO! I was appauled! Hello, where have you been my son? What have I just done for you today?? And your telling me you are not going to give me a piece?? Okay, so we know the answer to that, cut him off.  Do not do him any favors by driving him and his friends all over!!  Imagine?  How selfish?? I just got my butt in the car, in the freezing, damp cold and SNOW to take you to Shop Rite again (we went last nite, he forgot something) in this weather! And he wanted me to drive further to his Dad's!! What is wrong with children these days?? He never use to be this way, he was always kind, giving, and loving.  He would share everything with you, and now look, at sixteen years old, grown up, and he becomes selfish.  But, this is the way children behave now. It does not make it right, and it must be changed.  He needs to realize how selfish that was, do I do favors every day for him?? Yes, does he help around the home every day?? No.  Okay, I have to cut him off and not do so much until he becomes kinder, more caring and sharing.
I was always a giver, a lessen well learned from my mother, God rest her soul!! She had seven children, and always taught us to be kind, giving, and loving to each of our siblings, their wives, and children.  To never start drama, and never say bad things about one another, and to always help giving.  And boy, how my parents were right.  What else do we have in the world if we can not be kind and giving to others?? They are each a reflection of ourself, each of us needing love and support, and kindness from one another.

October 2011

Hello, its been awhile.  Life is always changing, the weather is changing, and with each season, there seems to be some type of uneasiness, within myself.  From what? The change? Of what? Purging ahead not knowing what will happen next.  Life is so different when your family is split apart, and now its all on you!! To figure it all out on your own about everything in your life now, including emotional stuff, physical stuff, making major decisions, cleaning the house, fixing the house, etc etc. It's funny when you hear spouses complain about having to do something "extra" coz the other one failed to do it, and here you are doing all the extra's yourself!! What doesn't break you makes you stronger I guess.  Not that I'm complaining, but if you have someone to depend on like your spouse, life is a little easier in some ways.  And I'm just saying you guys should be much more understanding and compassionate of us who struggle alone, in many ways.  And, does anyone ever think of saying, hey, need help with anything?? Naaaaa lol But, that's another story.  I feel we are here to help each other along the way any way we can.  I try to live that, unfortunately we all don't, even our own families!!
Life with the kids?? Let's see, wow, always so crazy!! My one daughter who lives with me did not want to go back to college, locally, had to force her there!! The other one took a semester off to see what she really wants to do.  And my son, well that's another story, another time!!
Me, well I already told you that.  I think I'm going to try to work again.  Need to have a life, and contribute as much as I can. So many choices, just have to decide, have lots of loves!! May try to share children's yoga in some nursery schools if I can.  Love that yoga, miss those kids, and would be great to get into, and yoga's good for our ailments.
I have been trying to heal my body, so hope it works!! Went to the emergency room a week ago with stomach issues!! Havent been eating as well as I should be, we all need to eat more greens, fruits, fiber, etc.  It really catches up with you!!