Well, its already February, and boy did we have lots of snow!! And all of you married who have their husbands shovel, or pay someone are so very lucky!! So many things we take for granted.  My children and I had to shovel our way out day after day, for hours!! We weren't happy campers, but none of us complained, thank God for small miracles!! We survived, had to take many breaks, but got it done.  The snow is beautiful though, and being outside in the fresh air and in the brightness of the snow was nice.  I have alot to shovel, a sidewalk, walkway and a large deep driveway, but we parked our cars close to the street so we didn't have to shovel the entire driveway.  Being a single parent truly is not easy.  I hear others complain over nothing, it makes me realize how spoiled they are, and makes me realize how much I do alone.  A single parent does twice the work in every way, emotionally dealing with the childrens issues, physically cleaning, shoveling, garbage, etc, and all the paperwork that has to be handled.  Everything regarding the kids I do, appointments, sickness, issues in school, issues with their dad, their friends, a total support system, me, I take care of it all.  I surely am not bragging, I actually am realizing how hard it is because so many times I feel there is too much to do, too much to take care of and I feel I can't do it all!!! I am sure many of you single parents feel the same.  Yeah, it gets hard alot.  And since I am in so much pain from this accident I had, and still have to pay child support, I am always stressing about the finances.  I don't know how I get by, its truly by the grace of God, month to month.  But, I want more, financial abundance, and this is the year of manifesting what I want, the law of attraction, so I am starting to believe I am financially abundant, and already have all I need, and it will come.  
About my kids, there always is drama, my son having a problem in every class in HS.  I got in touch with the guidance counselor, and the vice principal, and have spoken to him many times.  He needs to take more pride in himself and care enough about school, which he did not.  I think I finally got through to him, and he has been putting more effort in.  But, once again, its all on me, handling everything alone.  How fun life is!!!
The girls were mad about something, and I hate when they bitch to me about each other. I don't want to get involved and cannot take sides. But I do try to explain to them how the other one is feeling. I tried to tell them to talk about it.  After a week they did and they finally worked it out.  My one daughter stays made for awhile, but once she calms down she softens up.  I am grateful they are close to me and feel they can tell me anything.
I wake up every morning wondering how I am going to do all of this myself, but then the day goes on and I get the strength to move on and figure out a way to do it all.  
Winter is tough, I never want to go out at night, just want to stay in and hibernate.  I have to file a motion again trying to get the child support I pay dropped, but hate to go back to court again without an attorney.  How the judge is allowing my ex to basically steal money from me monthly is a crime, child support is calculated a certain way, depending on income and the amount of days the children sleep at the parents home.  And it should have been dropped years ago due to my increased overnights that I have proof of, and not working due to my accident.  It gets me sick when I think of how the judges allow him to get away with this.  And he wont even pay for my kids eyeglasses, eye appointments, haircuts, doctor appointments, nothing, I have to pay when I take them.  He won't take them or pay, and that's ok with the judges.  Just great.